I've always wondered when people talked about their hearts bleeding, what did they mean by that and what on earth did that feel like? I feel that since high school, I have discovered what this term is talking about. Definition of a bleeding heart--when you put everything you have out on the line, fall, and then u are left with not only pieces but a feeling of your heart in your hand just bleeding to death. Sorry to be so graphic! Then I thought, this is what God must feel like with me too often! He puts his unconditional love out on the line for me, and then I disappoint. I know we are talking about God here so he is bigger than a bleeding heart, but at the same time...he hurts for his children. And he understands our pain. Anyone who sacrifices their Son must understand a lot!! More than I will ever know, that's for sure! I have been letting God's heart bleed too much. I'm sure as I write this many of you are thinking of that song "Bleeding Love"...good song and true lyrics in parts of that song! As I ask for God to heal my bleeding heart from guys past, I also need to ask for forgiveness for any pain I may cause Him too.

On another note, I've been digging Jimmy Buffett, James Taylor, and Bonnie Raitt a lot lately. Golden Oldies. These are artists I grew up on. I remember so many summers at our river house with the music blaring all over the house with tunes by these guys. My dad was a real Jimmy fan. It fit him too. Such a goofball that wanted nothing but to relax by the water drinking his famous pina colata. I must say, I loved those things. He made them virgin for me, of course. So good. I've yet to make him as good as him. I'll keep trying tho! I CAN make a mean french toast tho. I have gotten my culinary side from him because Lord knows, my mom was a little lacking in that area. Anyway, this music makes me happy. I can't help but smile as I sing along, which is good because I am always looking for music to cheer me up when I have bad days. This has been such a hectic time with the car accident and everything, it is inspiring me to want to have another vacation that I actually get to relax on! Money is slim though, so it needs to be low budget. Perhaps the river house would be most fitting especially with the warm weather approaching. Well, get out there and enjoy some good Buffett and James Taylor! Toodles!