30 Day Shred

So all the training I've been doing for these 10ks...would you believe I did not run them???? haha. The first 10k was in Richmond and it was suppose to rain that day, so I said...no way am I running in the rain...so when I woke up that morning, what was it NOT doing?? Yep, that's right, not raining! Oh well. Tis life. Then the second 10k was going to be in SC this past weekend. We ended up not running this because we found out that this trip was going to end up costing us about $300 a person. Yeah, I don't have money like that right now. So!! I am still running because I would like to run a 10k eventually. I'm going to need to keep searching for one. I have found out through all this training though, I hate running. I will never enjoy running. It's just not for me. And I think I am starting to get bored with my workout routine. I love that it is going to start getting warmer so the thought of going inside a gym still does not sound good to me. I want to keep running/walking outside. So last night I was doing some research about different workouts that I could do. I have found a solution that I am going to try. It's by that hard-core trainer from Biggest Loser, Jillian. She has a DVD out called the 30 day shred. It got really good reviews and it's supposed to be killer! So I ordered it and I'm excited for it to arrive. With all of this running I am doing, I am shedding some pounds, but I am wanting something to help me build more muscle. I know women reading this understand me when I say that losing the weight is good and all, but if the body isn't getting toned, it's still not as pretty as you would like it to be. :) So I will have to let everyone know how this 30 day shred pans out.

I am currently sitting in the Muse coffee shop, my home away from home. It has become my sanctuary in the mornings as I sit in the corner with my journal and Bible and just talk to God. I write about all my frustrations and all my ambitions that I want to see with my relationship with Him and my relationship with others. The last 2 times that I have been in here, I've been asked if I am doing ok. This struck me because this particular person says he has been feeling not so good vibes from me lately. He feels that I am off these days. It has been thinking...do others feel this way about me to? And what is wrong with me?? Have I not been as chipper as I normally am? Do I not smile enough now? Have I lost something that others notice? Gosh, I hope not! I don't ever want people to feel that they can't approach me or they feel that I am just this awful depressed person that must be having a hard day. So to anyone who has been getting this vibe from me lately, I am sorry. I don't want to be like that. Life is good. I need to be cautious about showing this on my outward appearance more, I suppose. So if you see me, and you feel that I look distraught..help me smile!! :)