Daydream or God?

I will start staring off into space most of the time..ha...but my mind starts taking me down what I think might be daydreams. Sometimes I can really work myself up over nothing. I may reminisce about a past time, or think about things to come. But I'm starting to wonder if some of these things are actually God speaking to me. For instance, I start thinking about a person and decide to pray for them. I could pray for some specific that I may think is crazy. I could start praying for someone about traveling. I was thinking about someone the other day and starting praying that if God wanted to move them, as hard as it is for me to watch friends move away, for God to move them to where they would be happy and do His will. Later that day I find out that person had circumstances come up that could lead them to move. I remember as I was letting my mind go on about what life would be like without that person, I became really sad. I started getting to the verge of tears. I blinked a few times, and blamed it on the sad Dave Matthews song playing in the background. I started thinking how silly I was to pray about that, but I still did...Are my daydreams merely daydreams or still moments where I allow God to speak?? Either way it can be cool to see I prayed for something that could be taking place but then I also start to think I am going crazy. What do you think?

House Full of Laughter

This past weekend was one of my greatest friends birthdays. I find such joy in giving birthday parties for my friends. Birthdays in my family were never gone unnoticed. I got my love of party planning from my dad. He was famous for throwing the ultimate parties. I have definitely been blessed in all my wonderful birthday parties. Not having him around during my birthday now has been a huge adjustment. Anyway, back to my friend's birthday... we had a great group of people at my house after we went out to eat. I love nothing more than having a house full of people laughing. That night I don't think I have laughed that hard in a long time. And I love the kind of laughing where your head and stomach start to hurt so bad and yet you still can't stop laughing. There were so many interesting conversations that were brought up that night and somehow, everything was hilarious! I just loved it so much, I wanted to write about it :)

Bad Decision

I feel that I can sometimes be the queen of bad decisions. I put my mind to do something, and I do it. Normally, I can over-analyze things and make a pro and con list...but for some reason, not when it comes to a bad decision. I become impulsive and "brave". Last night, I made some bad decisions. I am not confident, nor honest enough to post on here what exactly those decisions were; I will just tell you, it wasn't pretty. Due to a dumb phone call (from whom I won't mention) I decided to lash out in a way that definitely did not show Christ. I knew I was acting in a way that was just plain dumb. I am thankful for God's grace, but it's like I took total advantage of that fact. "I will totally get God's grace for this, so I'll just be dumb for one night". Yeah...not so sure that God loves that at all. I spent the morning on my way to work, confessing sin and asking for forgiveness, and I did truly mean it. I guess I write this as a reminder not only to myself, but to others, we aren't technically allowed "grace periods" as we may design them ourselves. God's grace doesn't mean we can just consciously decide to do something bad or wrong in the moment knowing that God can forgive us later. I believe that God's grace is there because we are just sinful people. If it weren't for God's grace to have His Son die for us, but then raise from the dead so we could be saved as well...where would we be?? So before you decide to make that bad decision and decide to not care that we are still Christians, remember that perhaps no one else can see you, but who wants to disappoint their Father??