Leap of Faith

Perhaps that isn' the best title for this entry. I fear that those that may read this might chuckle at what I am about to say. Every Christmas season I end up going to about an average of 3 shows. I love the theater and the music in each one. Some do not know this, but in high school even before that, I lived to perform. LOVED it!!! There was a thrill about being on a stage knowing that everyone viewed you as entertainment. It was awesome. Dancing has always been my passion. I do love to sing, I do think that is a gift that Lord has given me (not tooting my own horn), but singing AND dancing together...even better. About 2 years ago, I was in Myrtle Beach seeing the Carolina Opry Christmas show. I seriously started to consider doing that. I thought how exciting that life would be. I love the thought of practicing over and over again. I love the thought of being surrounded by the same people all the time and forming such a deep relationship that they become your family. Then there is the final product. People actually paying money to watch someone just use their gifts and talents. Well...the thought is coming back. I may be going really extreme here, but what if this is something that I am being called to?? You can be Christ in a theater just as much as you can at an office job. And I would love it. It's something to think about. First step is research. Finding what it takes to audition...I fear that voice lessons may need to enter my life again...maybe a few dance classes. Who knows. This may be just something I feel passionate about for a season and never follow thru (I tend to have those a lot), but I don't know. It's worth a shot, I think. Thoughts??

Complacent

I realize that there may be something to be said for you deciding where your life is going. There is something to be said for someone to determine how they may feel everyday. I could wake up everyday and make a conscious effort to just be be happy about everything in my life right now, no matter what. Easier said that done right? I hate that. At this point in my life, within the last...oh, I don't know...2-3 months I have been feeling very routine lately. There is nothing wrong with routine, but I guess I'm wondering if there is something more to life than what I'm doing this very minute. I have always loved where I lived, the people, the familiarity, everything. But not lately...even though I may still have just as many friends as I did before, I am feeling more lonely. I love my house, truly I do, but I'm just feeling ho-hum about it all. Perhaps this could be the Lord placing on my heart that a change is coming and a move will take place. I don't know. No idea where I would go, no desire to go anywhere at all. Maybe at my age, you just find yourself in these ruts. My relationship with God is good. I am on my knees, face in Scripture, seeking His will for my life constantly. But do you ever feel like even when you are doing all those things, you experience a silence? And you know that silence means something, but you have no idea what? Not a fan of that either. I suppose I will look back on this as a "growing time" in my life. Gotta hate that... :) Fake it to make it. That's how I feel my life is these days...insight??