Something Big

Whenever I feel at my lowest point it always makes me feel better to think that maybe it is all because God is getting ready to do something really big in my life. I am starting to wonder that again. I am not exaggerating when I say that every single one of my friends are all going through some sort of trouble in their life; most of them end up thinking that God is trying to teach them something through it all. I don't think I have ever had all of my friends to be going through something at the same time all at once. I am the hub of them all. It is easy for me to become very discouraged and wonder if maybe I don't have something right with God and that is why all of my friends are hurting. Silly huh? Why would God purposely make all the ones I care and love for deeply hurt to teach me a lesson? Why not make me hurt directly? So then I've been asking myself, is God about to do something big in my town? Who knows...

My New Years resolution was actually a total God thing. (Yes, this may seem off topic, but you'll see where this fits in) I found myself thinking about the book of Titus in the Bible. It's a short read, so I went and got my Bible when I got home. The entire book focuses around how men and women of the Lord should be taught, how we should act, and how to minister to others; basically it is all about discipleship. This is one area that I am extremely passionate about. I became on fire about this little book. It was so much to digest at one time, so I read it through very slowly every morning in my time with God. I just recently have started going through it again. I have found that all these "resolutions" I've made in the past always fade. Not this one. I am not letting this one slip through my fingers. This is truth. This is what I am do as a child of God. I am to live according to the ways that God makes up, not the world. This morning I started thinking of everyone who is hurting and everyone who is frustrated with life. All of these hurting friends of mine. And then I remembered, Titus. I am doing everything that I supposed to be doing right now. Everyone who is having a hard time, they are doing exactly what they are supposed to be doing right now. We are loving on each other, praying for each other, crying with each other, and finding ways to make one another smile. We are doing discipleship. If we never suffered and we never went through these hard times, why would we need discipleship? Why would I need these friendships at all? I wouldn't need people to cling on to so tightly when I was having the crappiest day ever!

God is doing something big. It's happening right now. He is allowing us to unite with one another to talk to Him. He is orchestrating us all to want to look no where else but up. The end will come one day and He wants us to remember that our time here is limited. God is our something big. He is always moving us; always changing us to be more like His Son. I don't know about you, but that is something to get excited about!!