Voice=Found!

So I realized that my last post was perhaps very vague, so I thought I would take the time to elaborate on just how amazing my life is going right now. First I must preface this post by having everyone reading maybe 2 or 3 posts ago to get to full effect of just how powerful this story really is! I was in such a rut, loss of joy, etc. But I had a revival in my heart. Nothing in particular happened, I just woke up one morning and decided that it was time to change. I had joy coming back, my love for God just starting flowing over. I started to feel how depleted I had been feeling for so long. My Spirit was starving and I was the problem in making it starve. I started to just accept the fact that certain circumstances in my life may not be things that I believed to be "good timing" and realized that God has me in this particular place in my life for a reason. And that reason is GOOD! And I became absolutely, without a doubt, great with where God has me. Contentment, finally!! Can I get an AMEN?! And if that were not enough, I started meeting all these new people that God has been bringing into my life that just add to encouragement in my life. I found myself being the class clown again. I am making everyone laugh again, everyone actually enjoys being around me. For so long I struggled with this. I didn't feel like I was "me". But now, I'm back!! So if that were still not enough, I proceed to go to this lake cook-out where I knew only about 3 people, but I was totally stoked about new people that I would meet...again, I was back. The Kara I knew loved experiences like this. After all, I am an open-book, I will talk to anyone! I love hearing people's stories, and I love sharing mine! I want to hear about how God is moving in their life, or maybe even how God may not be present in their life. Either way, I love meeting new people. So I go to this cook-out and it was truly one of the best days I have had in a really, really long time! This is where God really showed off....so a bunch of us are sitting there on this dock, sunset, watching the water cast shadows of the reds, purples, yellows, and orange from the sky...I'm just wrapped up in God's splendor...so I turn to my friend Lindsay and go "Lets start singing some worship songs"...ok so you may be asking yourself, "how is that such a big deal Kara?" I'll tell you why! For the past 4 or 5 years, I have struggled with my singing voice. The short of the story is I felt rejected for my voice in college and had never experienced that before so I came to the conclusion that I sucked and God obviously took away my gift from me. So I became embarrassed to sing in front of anyone. My best friend was the only one who still heard me. I would sing along in the car, but more quietly when others were there for fear of them thinking I was tone-deaf and just plain awful. Granted, I did have some friends that heard me and still encouraged me by saying I was good, but I never really believed them. This was an issue I had with myself. I had taken upon myself my gift from God...I made it about me. Never do this! Ok so back to the lake...so after I said that, we started singing, just her and I. Let me write that again...I STARTED SINGING!! And it was not just the 2 of us sitting there. I had a small audience of friends that I literally had only known for maybe 2 days. And the best part, I forgot they were all there when I started singing. It was totally about God and me just wanting to worship to Him. Ok so we finish and then I get told how good of a singer I am. And when that was said, I realized what had just happened. Tears filled my eyes, but I shoved them down so these new friends wouldn't think I was some crazy emotional girl. (They will find that out later ha). And when they started telling me how pretty it sounded, I knew it was all genuine. And it wasn't about me this time. God totally took it all! So then we all started singing for the next like 2 hours! It was freaking awesome! That moment was precious and ever since then I have not been able to shut up! My voice is back. And maybe to some I don't sound that great, but again...it is not about me! So hence my "All Things New" slogan from here on out. My life is awesome and I am blessed beyond measure. And I'm excited to see where God takes me next on my journey with Him!