2 Miles and Man Blues

So my friend Lindsay convinced me to start training for this 10k in Charleston, SC that is in April. I didn't really want to do it at first, but after her talking about it so much, she got me to cave. I started this week because now we are running not one, but two 10ks. The first is in Richmond for the Massey Cancer Center. This will be near and dear to my heart as this was where my dad spent some time while he was battling cancer. I think there is even something named after him there, like a door or something. Who knows, but it is important to support this center to me. The second 10k will be my real challenge. So anyway, last night I ran 2 miles!! I'm not a runner at all, this was a huge accomplishment for me! But today I totally started to freak out thinking about this race. I don't know if it is the thought of whether I will be ready or not, or if it is the thought of doing totally terrible at the race. Who knows, but it really got me down today....which then brought on the man blues. Let me explain..my roommate and her sister cane up for this phrase to use when you start thinking about wanting a man in your life but you don't have one. This happened to me today. I started thinking about how much of me just wants to find that husband of mine, but not knowing how much longer I have to wait for the Lord to bring him along. I know that he will be worth the wait and I will probably say things like "Oh, I would have waited another 5 years to have this one". But it is hard when you have those days where you just feel kind of lonely. I won't dwindle on this thought the entire day because that doesn't make anyone feel good, but for now...a little sadness will cover me.